I'm back to having those fun niggling thoughts such as 'why are we getting married in 2010', 'should we postpone everything?'
Now none of these thoughts are related to our relationship, we love each other heaps and will be celebrating 6 years in November but it's the outside factors which are getting to me. For example the Boy is in fulltime studies and can't work (unless he gets crappy night work which would impact on his studies and our time together), I'm currently unemployed (although I've had 2 interviews today and 2 more Wednesday & Thursday) and the big one we don't have our own place.
I thought if worse came to worse we'd be ok living in a family home when we're married but we're both in hate with that idea. So I guess I just really really hope and have every part of me crossed that I get one of these jobs to give us a bit of financial stability.
That's the other thing I think about as well when I consider postponement:
- We'd lose all our deposits
- Prices would increase and our wedding budget would go over
- We've booked the honeymoon