I guess I should start this post by saying I am a jealous person. The boy and I were always planning to get engaged on our big trip to America and after going out for almost 5 years, we both felt it was time and were so excited. Then I got blindsided by his brother popping the question to his girlfriend even though, they hadn't even reached a year (she was pregnant though so, idiot me should have seen it coming). I am happy for them and, they love each other to pieces but, I feel like we're completely in the shadow of their wedding. I know, I know I sound horrible but, I just felt like being honest and airing a bit of my dirty laundry.
So their wedding is planned for February and ours is in July. I am of course extremely excited for them both and interested in hearing all the details. In fact, as a bridesmaid, I'm currently helping out with the Hens Night etc... But I just feel like I can't get excited with his side of the family over our big day :( In fact I was talking about everything with his Mum and, all she did was laugh and told me I plan ahead way too much (um hello, you need to plan ahead for weddings!). So even though I've bought the girls bridesmaid dresses I feel like I can't tell the soon to be SIL (the one getting married) and also the boy's sister because everything is about her wedding. It sucks missing out on that! I know it'll be different when their wedding is over but, I feel a bit bad counting down the days and wishing their moment over and done with.
Grr if I have one recommendation it is don't get engaged when someone else in the immediate family is because you do feel like you're chucked in the cupboard like a winter coat!
At least I can share the excitement with my MoH today though and I'm so excited to be doing so. Although the dresses look a bit crumpled and no where near as awesome as it did in the shop window (or done up to make my little sister look gorgeous)! Hopefully she can see the magic and I know the colour will make her look stunning.