My Wife

So last night the boy came to the realisation that I was going to be his wife. It was lights out time and we were both trying to fall to sleep and out of the blue he says "you're going to be my wife, I really like that". It was so sweet especially because I keep complaining about how I don't want to be a 'wife' the title just doesn't sit well with me for where I feel I am at in my life. It's bizarre as well because marriage is about becoming husband and wife but, I think it comes down to my fear of losing my name and the rest of me. I know that isn't going to happen but it's still a scary big step to be taking.

Anyway getting back to it...it was just a really sweet moment and reminded me once again of why we're getting married.

Then on the otherside of this whole wedding thing...you know the side which isn't about us celebrating our love but rather us conforming to all that is WEDDING. Bridesmaid dresses are doing my head in! They can't decide and no colour suits all of them so I am seriously tempted to put them all in black with different dresses. I do not understand people's aversion to black at weddings, after all the groomsmen are generally in black suits! I don't buy into the whole black is for funeral thing either, because if it's good enough for the boys why isn't it good enough for the girls? I think this is just something I need to sleep on for the next few months and hopefully something will just come to be and that whole debacle will be over!

I want to say a big Merry Christmas to all the brides-to-be whose last christmas this will be as a Miss (or Ms). We're entering the big world of Mrs. soon and even though I'm scared, I'm looking forward to it as well.

My Box

So I got my box of goodies from www.feather.com.au YAY!

3 different kinds of tulle (2 ivory (one with those spots) and 1 black), an ivory flower for my hair, 2 brooches 1 of which I'm not too fussed on cos it's a gross gold but looked prettier on the site and FEATHERS!!! I wish I'd ordered more feathers because my button bouquet really needs that something extra.

In other sad news the boy failed one of his exams. Luckily he can do summer school but I always get scared when stuff like that happens because our whole future is based on him doing awesome. Then I feel evil because I'm a woman I can be independent and bring home the bacon. But all I really want is to have lots of babies and then when they get to school hopefully figure out what the hell I want to do career wise!

Hopefully the trip to Bali in January is still on because we need to get away but if it's not we can always go somewhere later on in the year. Plus we have the Vietnam honeymoon to look forward to YAY.

On a more wedding side note: people have already started talking wedding registries with me and it's weird...I have no idea what I want let alone if I even want one. The one thing I do know is I want a gun to pick stuff out with, I blame American movies for that!

Dress Hunting Disappointment

So I thought my sister and I had finally found the bridesmaid dress:

Unfortunately when I went back with my MoH and she tried it on, the colour just wasn't right and I think it's also a dress more suited to tall people :(

So now, I'm trying to stop myself even thinking about them. My backup is to go with dresses from Bari Jay and order them online. Although I'm a bit scared at ordering 4 dresses online from America the other option is spending quadruple the price at a shop here! I was disgusted when I got a quote for $470 for a dress I found online for $120! But I guess that truly does show how saying the word wedding ups the price considerably.

Now I'm just trying to focus on birthdays and Christmas. Then next up is the soon-to-be brother in-law's wedding which the boy and I get to be part of the bridal party for. But I'm looking forward to the new year even if I potentially start it without a job, I'm good at landing on my feet thankfully!